dearest,

im sure u feel better now. couse i already put down all you load from your body and brain. i am not sad but i am really2 mad. but u know me, i am not affort to be mad that long because after i realise what i lost, my heart going to kill me. i tought u will begging and feel sorry after what u did. but..... u are not. telling all people about what happens to us is your first plan isnt it?this makes me angry. lots of madness huh? well, this is actually i feel when u broke my heart. but then i try to keep quiet and start over with you. start over is what i am trying to do two days before. forget all about it, actually that is not real me. i am mad of you many times but after a while, after i saw your face, after i think that i will lost you. I makes decisions to ignore my madness. because, i cant keep my life going without you. because i like you to be my partner. because i obsessed with you. because a lot of things we have been through. because most of time, i dont care what u looks like or what kind of attitude you have. the important thing is, i know when no one are not in our world, u treat me special.

yeah, i tought u will begging for my forgiveness. u do ask for my forgiveness, but u didnt ask to be back to you. its okay then. i have to accept even though i didnt want to.

i dont know what else i want to tell you. maybe its a lott. but its enough, this is not worth it.

this is my last post i guess. i wont update for a month or a few month or i'll just delete our memories when needed. No, i lied, i cant delete any of our memories :{
Bye.

i mizz you.

tak tahu kenapa,
sedih sangat lepas baca komen tu.
rasa macam kecil hati. cemburu. sedikit marah.
umpama kacang lupakan kulit. eh tak juga. kacang tu tak lupakan kulit. andai kata kacang ada banyak kulit, ada beberapa yang dia terlupa. termasuklah aku.
segelintir lagi kacang yang dia ingat tu, aku tak tahu macam mana mereka layan si kacang tu. aku rasa aku seringkali mengejar perhatian kacang tu. tapi akulah yang dia paling lupa. aku tidak tahu kenapa terkejar kejar sangat nak dapatkan cinta hati kacang tu. aku sendiri tidak faham sebenarnya.

lepas hal kacang lupakan beberapa kulit ni, ada lagi yang aku sedih. sedih kerana terlalu rindu. rindu kepada si empunya hati aku ini. sampai menangis aku. padahal baru sehari tak jumpa dan tak saling berhubung. bodoh juga aku ni. tapi tadi ada sempat sampaikan beberapa patah sahaja. kata kata yang tak bermakna. bertambah lagi sedih aku ni. mungkin aku sedih sangat kerna aku menunggu kau dengan keadaan yang tidak tenang dan tidak sabar. bila putus harapan, ya benar benar kecewa.

lihat, bila aku sedihlah aku pandai berkata kata.