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i just woke up from sleep. its 8 o'clock. last time i tgk jam pukul 4setengah. gosh gila tido mati i ni. dah la pg pun bangun pukul 11. maybe i hate wht have just happened and hoping it was just a dream. unfortunately, its not a dream. its really really happening.

ptg td gaduh dgn ali. dia marah sbb i ckp 'takde sape' when he asked 'sape tegur u kt ym?'.

dia ni mmg sensitif. then things getting worse. dia ckp, 'kita break'. mmg dah biasa mcm ni tp i pun bengang then i ckp, 'if u tak sanggup berubah demi i, fine kita break. sbb u lansung tak takut kehilangan i'. then dia ckp, 'i pgg kata2 u tu'. damn.

dia asyik ckp, maybe ini yg terbaik utk u. kalau u ade jodoh, insyaAllah u akn jumpa laki lain. then i marah la dia. 'kalau nk ckp psl kebaikan i, dont u ever ckp psl break up lagi !' and i was begging, searching for my old ali. dia kata ' i lah ali. ali dulu tu hanya berlakun baik je. nilah ali yg sbnr. hanya nak satu je dr prmpuan and i byk tipu u'. oh, and dia ada ckp ' i slalu rasa regret'. (????) regret of wht? ' regret suka i? regret mengurat i? regret buat i suka u?' then he answered. 'regret of wht i have said to u'. then i ckp, 'regret of saying i sayang you????'

then ali ckp, 'i tanak ckp pape dah'. thts all.

OMG. i just dont get it. dia nk tinggalkan i sbb dia fikir ini demi kebaikan i or dia betul2 dah tak sayang kat i and dia menyesal jdkan i gf dia ???

GOD, HELP ME. PLEASE :'(

dia nak i jwb sama ada i setuju nk break up dgn dia tmrw or this monday.

i tetap dgn jawapan i yang dulu. muktamad.

i sanggup hadapi apa saja. asalkan u tak lpskan i. please. i love you