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that night, kiteorg berbaik semula :)

belive me, its hard. really really complicated.

we hade a long night talk. i mean heart to heart. up to 3 hours ! wow :D

i think this i the hardest one sbb ali tak habis habis dgn prinsipnya, dia memikirkan nak jd kawan sahaja dgn i. he thought this is the best for me. i know u kesian kat i. u fikir, just being a friend with u akn buat i happy sampai mati la? no sayang. this is a wrong fact.

i bahagia kalau u jd teman hidup i. tak kira susah atau senang. i pun tau i byk salah and byk kali buat u sakit hati until u tak larat hadapi semua ni. give me a chance, please ?

if u nak i fikir tentang kepedihan yg melanda kat u, i'll let u go JUST FOR YOU. i takkan fikir psl i lansung. remember that. and as u wish, i takkan pernah fikir u tak sayang i. InsyaAllah. semua ni terpulang kepada layanan u terhadap i. ehh, this is doesnt mean i dah terima okay. i cakap je. i tak tau i boleh buat ke tak nanti. im going crazy maybe?

that night, even i dah ckp apa yang terkandung dalam hati i, suddenly dia tanya dgn selambanya, 'jom breakup sarah?'. i senyap for a few minutes, tak percaya apa yg i ckp tak hanya sekadar perkataan dan ayat. lansung tidak membuatkan ali ubah fikiran. but then i cakap ape pun i tak igt, tapi dia terharu laaa :) i agak bangga sebenarnya sbb dpt buat ali terharu and percaya we'll have this relationship dalam tempah masa yg sangat panjang.

i tak berapa igt sgt the exact words. but something like i ni still sayang ali even though ali dah buat mcm2 kat i. and dia kata i baik gilaa. he asked me why. well OF COURSE la.. i sayang u kot. for your information, i tak pernah oh sayang org smpai mcm ni. i tak pernah putus asa dgn u. like i said, being with u is a wonderful think in my world. its true. i tak reka2 okay.

hah i penat senyum mlm tu. hehe. better night ha?

byk lagi la kteorg ckp, but i dah tak igt sangat. maklumlah, i ni kan cepat lupa. hah terukkan i ni. btw, it happened last saturday night. of course lah i lupa.. lgpun i busy. tak da masa nak online.

but ape yg penting, masalah ni dah selesai :)